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Delay (English Version) — Chapter four.

Hey there! I'm finally here with the fourth chapter of this fanfic.
I was lost since I was super busy working on AYH Concert anybody wants to know it, Iza, anyway, thanks for read this story, I hope you'll stay with me until the end! As always, I apologize in case you found a mistake, English is not my first language.
Comments will be loved!
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Pairing: Sakumoto.
Genre: Angst.
Length: Chaptered.
Rating: NC-17.
Disclaimer: They don't belong to me... as much as I want.
Summary: Sho and Jun had a relationship with ups and downs, but then, Sho betrayes Jun and his whole world crashes down when Jun had a car accident. Six months later, Sho wants to be with Jun again, but, can that be possible?
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“You don’t have to tell me more. He definitely hates you.” Said Nino after a few seconds; We were talking on the phone, and I had told him about the kiss with Jun days ago. After that kiss, he acted reticent towards me, but even so, I continued to treat him the same, without being discouraged, since I knew that it really bothered him a lot.
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“I know, but you'll see that he's going to forgive me.” I heard my best friend laugh and sighed.
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“So, we'll see you tonight, after the show.” We both said goodbye and the call was over. That night we'd all been together to go to the theater to see Nino's play.
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Although Jun didn’t want to see me, he did not protest and even he organized the meeting, from the entrances, to the place we would go after leaving the theater. We wanted to pay the tickets to contribute to the cause, although Nino had protested, but in the end, he accepted.
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We had everything planned to meet in front of the doors of the theater at nine o'clock. So, after talking to Nino, I did some things that were pending, I sent some e-mails and my manager came to my house around five in the afternoon to talk about three important meetings I had tomorrow. After my manager left, I went to take a shower to go to the theater.
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After taking a shower, I chose to wear dark blue trousers, a long-sleeved blue shirt, which I rolled up to my elbows, wearing a black vest over it and black moccasins. As soon as I finished getting ready, I left my apartment and went to pick up Ohno to get to the theater together.
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When our leader and I arrived at the meeting point, Jun was outside. He was smoking a cigar, totally absorbed in everything else; He was wearing black trousers, shirt and jacket of the same color, he had combed his hair back, and instead of carrying the crutches, he simply leaned on an elegant walking stick. He looked up after sifting the cigar, blowing the smoke to one side before smiling at us.
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“Hey.” I said, smiling back.
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“Good evening, Matsujun.”
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“Good evening, Riida. Hi Sho.” he greeted us cordially, extinguishing the cigar against a cassock behind him, and finally throwing it there. “Aiba-chan already arrived, but while he was going by his keys, I was waiting for him here. It's good that you arrived, it's almost time.” He pointed at his wristwatch.
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“Oh, Matsujun, you left your crutches.” Satoshi commented with a smile.
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“I wasn’t going to come here using those stupid crutches, you know...”
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“Can you support yourself just by using that stick?” I inquired with concern.
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“Sure, thanks for asking.” Jun replied dryly, smiling a few seconds later.
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While Ohno and Jun talked about unimportant things, I was silent, just listening to them and feeling like a strange feeling welcoming me. Does Jun really hate me? Because if that was the case, I imagined how pathetic I looked in that situation, I was begging him over and over to get back together, to forgive me at least, asking him to talk to me in a good way...
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“I’m sorry guys, my brother called me and entertained me for a while.” Explained Aiba, a bit distressed, getting me out of my mental chatter. I just nodded at him, and the four of us made our way to the theater.
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I didn’t say anything while watching the play, first because I had lost the desire to comment, and second, because, I had to admit that my friend's skills in acting were good, but seeing him closer after so long, I had left totally moved.
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“You were amazing, Nino!” I exclaimed, hugging him tightly as soon as we were in his dressing room.
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My best friend hugged me back with a huge smile.
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“Thank you. I didn’t imagine that I would like them so much.”  he commented leaving me to finish dressing; While Jun and Aiba sat down, Ohno and I stood, watching Nino putting on tight jeans in black.
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“I was fascinated by the work and also by your performance. The part of your monologue was great.”  Jun said smiling.
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“And when you cried, you made me cry too.”
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“You always cry, Aiba-chan.” Ohno answered with a chuckle.
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“Hey, let him express his feelings. That makes me know that I'm still able to make people cry.”
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“Nino, you would make people cry without even trying and you know it.” I said with a smile.
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“Oh, come on guys, let's talk about that somewhere else, let's go now.”  Ohno gave a few slaps, making the conversation stop.
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We went to a small bar tucked away in Roppongi, at Jun's choice, and to tell you the truth, it was not bad at all. He was quite discreet, so I was very doubtful if they knew we were there; We were at a secluded table, drinking sake while talking about us and remembering some anecdotes.
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By that time, I was more relaxed, perhaps because of the alcohol. Although, honestly, we were all more relaxed, even Jun himself looked more smiling and spoke to me without tension.
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I must confess that from that moment I began to have fun, I was amused by Aiba's silly jokes and Nino's high-pitched gags; Already past midnight, we went to my apartment, to take a little more. I didn’t want it to be in my house, because the boys tend to get hyper overactive when they drink alcohol, but, we played janken and I lost, so, that should be my penance.
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“Enough, you're going to eat the whole refrigerator, Riida!” Exclaimed Nino, causing him to laugh again, Ohno, with his mouth full of custard, smiled.
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“I just ate some cake, I was hungry.”
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“You must sit and not eat more. You said it before swallowing the pasta, the onigiri, an old soup and now that cake.”  Jun commented while laughing. “You're going to leave Sho-chan without any provisions.”
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My heart skipped a beat as soon as I heard him say "Sho-chan", at that moment, we both looked at each other and smiled again, making me feel totally full.
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After having taken another bottle of sake, Nino apologized and said that he should leave, because the next day would have another function and he had to rest... Nino took Ohno with him, so he didn’t eat something else, leaving us Aiba, Jun and me, but Aiba, half an hour later, said he had to leave, my ex-boyfriend stared at him, stood up and went out with him.
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A little regretful, I imagined that Jun would be telling Aiba to get him out of there, that he preferred to be eaten alive by being alone with me, and that feeling of restlessness invaded me again.
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But it wasn’t like that.
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Jun was there, he had decided to stay.
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“Now you and I are going to talk.”  He muttered before closing the door behind him.
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By Jun
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I had a great time that night.
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At first, when I had gone to the theater with the boys, I felt a slight tension. Sho didn’t want to talk and that was weird, because he was always, always talking, Aiba and Ohno were as always, but I knew something happened, and I put my hand to the fire betting it had to do with me, but that did not matter to me... or maybe I do care?
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After leaving the bar, Sho was much more relaxed, also somewhat drunk. I had to admit that I was drunk too, had it not been for the support that Aiba had offered me, I would have fallen a few times. All for walking with the stupid walking stick, but I wanted to look like someone cool in front of the guys; With that halt of swagger that was typical of me.
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As soon as Ohno and Nino left the apartment, I knew it was time to tell Aiba that we should leave, and when he said he was leaving, I stood up to go with him. I was about to say goodbye to Sho when my friend took my free hand and pulled me out of the apartment, leaving me puzzled.
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“Hey, those are not manners, Masaki. Remember that I can’t walk well.” I reproached him as soon as we were out.  “You didn’t even let me say goodbye to Sho.”
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"Well, because you don’t have to say goodbye to Sho-chan, Matsujun, because you're going to get back with him."  he said in a tone of scolding that bordered almost in the paternal way.
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“What? What are you saying? I came with you, I have to go with you... are you going to leave me stranded here?” I asked quickly.
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“Jun, look... very soon, the five of us must work together again and, however "friendly" you and he may be, the tension between you is unbearable, and that hurts the group...” Aiba clucked his tongue and He looked into my eyes. "I've seen him doing his part, but you don’t. I know that Sho-chan betrayed you, I can understand that, so, if you want, do not go back with him, but... at least have a good relationship as a friends, don’t be so selfish."
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I was quite surprised to hear Aiba so serious. Maybe, after all, he was right even though we were a little drunk.
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“Agree. Anyway, if I should sleep here, I'll send Sho to the futon and I'll stay in his bed...” I sighed loudly.  “Maybe you're right, he and I should talk about this seriously.”
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“Well, I wish you luck.”  he said smiling and gave me a big hug before leaving me, saying goodbye with my hand as soon as he entered the elevator. I drew a smile and took a breath of air before entering the apartment again, leaning on my cane with every step I took. Sho continued on the couch and opened his eyes wide as he saw me.
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“Now you and I are going to talk.”  I said as soon as I closed the door. I walked to where I was and sat on the couch beside him; He took the sake in his glass in a single swallow and served himself more, serving me as well.
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“Well, what do you want to talk about?” He looked around.  “Aiba-chan left?”
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“Yes, Masaki is gone... right now, I think it's best if I stayed. We have to talk about what happened almost seven months ago, but to speak truthfully, without sarcasm, without games, to speak seriously.”
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“I've never tried to be sarcastic, I haven’t played, everything I've said has been serious...”
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“For God's sake, Sho. You're saying that you love me just like you do, and it feels like a joke to me and you know it.”  I interrupted harshly, taking the sake from my glass in a single gulp.
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“Look, when I told you that there is not a day when I don’t curse myself for having let myself be carried away, for having been unfaithful, for having behaved like an idiot with you, I wasn’t lying. I really do hate myself for it...” He sighed and turned to me.  “Look at you Jun, you are not the same as always, do not smile like before and I know that all is thanks to me. Do you think I could play with something like this? After what I did to you?”.
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“My life became chaotic... I never blamed you for the accident. I knew it was my fault, and believe me, I didn’t care at the time because I wanted to die...”  I confessed in a low voice. "Your betrayal hurt me so much, I felt that something inside me was broken, dead. No one knew how hurt I was, because... you know Sho? I didn’t shed a single tear in front of anybody, all that pain, that immense desire to call you every night, to forget what had happened to that girl... and to tell you to embrace me, all that I had to keep to myself, because, after all, I am the "invincible" Matsumoto Jun...”  I whispered, feeling like a searing knot burning my throat.
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“Jun, do you think I do not know the hell you went through? I was suffering, I was suffering from not knowing how you were, and I was with those crazy urges to run after you, but I didn’t because... because I'm a damn proud and because I was afraid that you would reject me, I also wanted to punish myself for What I did to you.” Sho's eyes were in tears, he looked at me without trying to stop them; I also found myself crying. For the first time in this time, I felt that the burden I was carrying was released. “I love you, I love you too Jun. I will never do that again, indeed, since that night I have not seen her again, because... nobody compares to you, you are unique and no one will ever be able to satisfy me like you.”
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“You regret having sex with her, right?”  I asked in a low voice.
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“Every single day, Jun.”
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“You hurt my pride when you betrayed me that way, but... I knew it, at the end you would say something like that.”  I outlined a smile and he did the same.
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“I was spying on you when you went to rehab.” Sho muttered a few seconds later. “I know I'm feeding your ego, but it's true, I needed to see you.”
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“I always watched News Zero. I asked Riida about you, because I was still interested in you...”
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“You made me happy by telling me that.”  Sho approached me and whispered those words. I raised my face and our gazes met.
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He looked happy, for the first time and I saw a sincere smile in his mouth, and I knew there was an equal on my face.
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“And you confessing to me your repentance.”  I said lowering the tone of my voice, our faces were closer and the lighting in the room was more subdued, or was simply that everything had come out of my focus and the only thing I could glimpse perfectly was that face with huge brown eyes in front of me.
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Alcohol was taking over me.
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I knew that was wrong and, if the distance between our mouths became null, we couldn’t stop, but something inside me, I needed Sho. These months had been very lonely, and at the same time, I wanted to show him that he had made the mistake of his life by having sex with that woman, when he was absolutely certain she couldn’t equal me in bed, modesty aside.
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We both smiled before kissing gently, Sho placed his hands to my waist and pull me closer to him; His lips had a delicious mixture of alcohol and mint that made me crazy. I bit his thick lower lip and pulled it gently, causing Sho to gasp against my mouth. I smiled a sly smile and I grabbed him by the shirt, bringing him closer to me while our lips melted in that kiss was intensifying every second. His fearless tongue entered my mouth, traversing every inch of it gently, making me shudder as soon as he met mine. Sho grabbed me tightly around the waist, sliding over me carefully to hurt me, still kissing. Our tongues intertwined in a sensual dance that did not seem to have an end and that shivered every part of my body.
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“I want you, Jun...”  He whispered brokenly, kissing my neck feverishly, caressing my legs with subtlety; I just closed my eyes and let myself go, feeling as my body temperature began to increase along with every kiss that my ex-boyfriend gave me. “I need to feel you, I want to touch you so bad... these months without your body have been like torture..."
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I groaned at the mere suggestive words. I had missed him too and I also wanted to feel him again... I knew, something inside me said that it was completely wrong, but I wanted it, I needed it...
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"Sho..." I sighed heavily and opened my eyes to look at him. “Make love to me.”
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And he returned to light my world with that smile.
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Tags: angst, chaptered, matsumoto jun, nc-17, romance, sakumoto, sakurai sho
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